Trying to conquer withdrawal from Xanax for Anxiety.

                I'm having a harder time today trying to not be confused and disoriented. My brain won't stop thinking. How do you shut of your thinking part of your brain?
             I know people who don't have this just don't understand.Please help me. I need support through this wicked journey. It's taken its toll on me. I thought I was being so positive but worrying about why I can't help my daughter from being so angry at me. I just can't help her as this is too much for me to do. She has to work out her own problems she has. Hopefully her new therapist is a good one. She is way of the road of reality and it's not helping me work out these issues on myself. I protected her and her troubled self most of her life and I just am not able anymore to help her. Everyone blames mom. It's time mom needs a break as mom is getting old and just can't do this anymore. Sorry.
         Trying to stay positive here. Life is a journey and boy the roads have been rough and not paved. The hills have been high and it falls so deeply along the way. Mental illness isn't fun. I raised you and helped you raise your kids. Don't expect me to meet your expectations anymore. Your 39 so live your life. I had to do it on my own without family and I did the best that I could do. Do you now and I will do me.
       No time for drama this late in life. The years have gone and the decades have flown by so quickly. I have arrived. I will be sixty five years old next month. Time's a ticking. I still have a bit of living to do. I will pray each day and know God is with me. I know calm down and join the world. I'm trying, very trying as my mom used to say to me.
       It's winter time and the snow has shown up to say hello. Ok it feels much colder than 33 degrees. brrrr. Love my Ohio winters. Thirty years of feeling normal gone. No more medication. I'm on my own. I'm scared. Let me breathe normally . Peace be with you. Until later...
                                                                              Nonny Dee
 

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Two weeks before hurricane season, Puerto Rico is not ready, groups warn As the start of hurricane season looms, 20,000 customers in Puerto Rico still have no power and federal aid is falling short, say groups.

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Hurricane season starts in exactly two weeks, prompting worries that the island — still in recovery mode from Hurricane Maria — is not ready to face another storm season.

On Tuesday, several members of the Power 4 Puerto Rico coalition, comprised of several non-profits and advocacy groups issued a warning to the federal government, concerned that much of the island's existing challenges after Hurricane Maria will repeat themselves in the event of another hurricane.

Throughout the eight months following Hurricane Maria, there have been issues surrounding FEMA's recovery efforts, including questions about botched meal contracts, delayed emergency response , and the high numbers of denied aid applications to rebuild homes.

“One thing is evident at the core of the response,” said Ana Maria Archila, co-executive director at the Center for Popular Democracy and a part of the Power 4 Puerto Rico coalition. “There is a crisis of democracy. The federal government is acting as if the people of Puerto Rico are not constituents.”
June 26, 2019- Over a year later. 
Let me tell you what happened after the storm. 
 Our president went down to Puerto Rico and threw rolls of paper towels to the people. After that he chose to not fund 
these beautiful people and many died in desolate conditions. No money was ever put aside to help them from the emergency from the storm.His first total tragedy. To this
day people are still suffering and Puerto Rico is still suffering. This is Donald Trumps fault. Help us Lord from the Storm of Trump onto the people and to our 
little chldren. Lord help s all. Until later...
 Nonny Dee😎

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Advice from a old person.

Advice from a old person.

1. The most important person in your life is the person who agreed to share their life with you. Treat them as such. 2. You might live a long life, or you might live a short one — who knows. But either way, trust me when I say that you’re going to wish you took better care of yourself in your youth. 3. Stuff is just stuff. Don’t hold onto material objects, hold onto time and experiences instead. 4. Jealousy destroys relationships. Trust your significant other, because who else are you supposed to trust? 5. People always say, ’’Make sure you get a job doing what you love!’’ But that isn’t the best advice. The right job is the job you love some days, can tolerate most days, and still pays the bills. Almost nobody has a job they love every day. 6. If you’re getting overwhelmed by life, just return to the immediate present moment and savour all that is beautiful and comforting. Take a deep breath, relax. 7. Years go by in the blink of an eye. Don’t marry young. Live your life. Go places. Do things. If you have the means or not. Pack a bag and go wherever you can afford to go. While you have no dependents, don’t buy stuff. Any stuff. See the world. Look through travel magazines and pick a spot. GO! 8. Don’t take life so seriously. Even if things seem dark and hopeless, try to laugh at how ridiculous life is. 9. A true friend will come running if you call them at 2am. Everyone else is just an acquaintance. 10. Children grow up way too fast. Make the most of the time you have with them. 11. Nobody ever dies wishing they had worked more. Work hard, but don’t prioritize work over family, friends, or even yourself. 12. Eat and exercise like you’re a diabetic heart patient with a stroke — so you never actually become one. 13. Maybe this one isn’t as profound as the others, but I think it’s important… Floss regularly, dental problems are awful. 14. Don’t take anyone else’s advice as gospel. You can ask for advice from someone you respect, then take your situation into consideration and make your own decision. Essentially, take your own advice is my advice… 15. The joints you damage today will get their revenge later. Even if you think they’ve recovered completely. TRUST ME! 16. We have one time on this earth. Don’t wake up and realize that you are 60 years old and haven’t done the things you dreamed about. 17. Appreciate the small things and to be present in the moment. What do I mean? Well, it seems today like younger people are all about immediate gratification. Instead, why not appreciate every small moment? We don’t get to stay on this crazy/wonderful planet forever and the greatest pleasure can be found in the most mundane of activities. Instead of sending a text, pick up the phone and call someone. Call your mother, have a conversation about nothing in particular. Those are the moments to hold onto. 18. Pay your bills and stay the hell out of debt. If I could have paid myself all the money I’ve paid out in interest over the years, I’d be retired already. 19. If you have a dream of being or doing something that seems impossible, try for it anyway. It will only become more impossible as you age and become responsible for other people. 20. When you meet someone for the first time, stop and realize that you really know nothing about them. You see race, gender, age, clothes. Forget it all. You know nothing. Those biased assumptions that pop into your head because of the way your brain likes categories, are limiting your life, and other people’s lives.

LETTER FROM A MOTHER TO A DAUGHTER

LETTER FROM A MOTHER TO A DAUGHTER

LETTER FROM A MOTHER TO A DAUGHTER:"My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same story night after night until you would fall asleep.

When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl?

When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If I occasionally lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you.

And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked.

When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love.

I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you... my darling daughter."

14 Signs of High Intelligence that Cannot Be Faked

14 Signs of High Intelligence that Cannot Be Faked

Intelligent people and smart people are two very different things. Sure, most people might assume they are the same but even some of the dullest lights can be intelligent in their own ways.

Below I am going to go over some of the more common signs that you might be more intelligent than you think. These are things people can try to fake but never truly get right. You either have them or you don’t there is not much of an in-between.

14 Things That Prove You Have An Intelligence That Cannot Be Faked:

1. You have a lot of self-control.

You are able to keep yourself in check big time. You know who you are and who you are not. Bad timing is not a thing with you.

2. You are easily distracted.

You sometimes find yourself a bit distracted. Those who do not let their minds wander are not intelligent. Being distracted is not a bad thing. It means your mind is able to do more than you think it is.

3. You stay up late.

Smarter people tend to stay up late. If you are a bit of a night owl then you might be more intelligent than you think. This meaning intelligent in the ways most people would assume. There is nothing wrong with being a person of the night. Even DaVinci slept the most during the day.

4. You worry about the small things, a lot.

One study

found that kids who worried more scored higher on tests. The more we ruminate, the more intelligent we are. Those who tend to worry about things also tend to put more into the work that they do.

5. You question everything.

People with higher intelligent levels tend to really spend more time thinking. They question things other people might not question. They are always going out of their way to figure things out.

6. You understand that there is a lot you do not know.

This is probably one of the most prominent things that intelligent people do. They know that they are not the smartest people in the world. Sometimes there are things we don’t know and there is nothing wrong with that. Truly intelligent people are the only ones who accept this.

7. You have a good sense of humor.

Humor affects our intellectual abilities. It keeps our brain and so forth in good condition so that we can remain intelligent. If you find a lot of things to be funny and laugh at things other people might not it is a better sign than you might think.

8. Your memory is very in depth.

The more detailed your memory is, the better. Do you remember tiny details of things other people don’t? This is a sign that you are picking up on things in real time that most are not.

9. You tend to procrastinate.

Intelligent people tend to procrastinate more because they know that they can still get things done. They put things off until the very last minute and then rush them together. While this is not always the case it is a lot of the time.

10. You are very specific.

People who are highly intelligent are much more specific than most people. When the give directions or tell a story it is highly detailed. They know how things should be and want to give as much information as possible.

11. You are very curious.

Intelligent people are usually very curious people. They seek out a lot of things that other people don’t. They tend to think more than the average person and so when they notice something their curiosity about it becomes peaked.

12. You have thick skin.

Intelligent people do not often let things other people say affect them. They have thick skin and know that when people insult them they are merely trying to build themselves up. These things will not bring them down.

13. You do not underestimate or overestimate yourself.

Intelligent people know who they are and what they are capable of. They don’t force themselves to take too much on at once and they don’t underdo anything either. Intelligent people know their limits.

14. You are very empathetic.

Intelligent people are more empathic than other people. They really feel things on a deeper level than your average Joe. While this can be a bad thing it is also generally a very good thing.

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Indians fans travel from near and far for postseason baseball

Indians fans travel from near and far for postseason baseball

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Indians fans travel from near and far for postseason baseball

Published: October 5, 2017 - 8:51 PM | Updated: October 6, 2017 - 6:58 AM

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  Fans walk to the left field entrance before Game 1 of the ALDS between the Cleveland Indians and New York Yankees on Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland.(Leah Klafczynski/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Edwin Encarnación fans (from left) Adam Saintz, Coley O'Brien, Evan Merten, and Tyler Abels walk to meet their fifth parrot, Kate Began, at the ticket gate before Game 1 of the ALDS between the Cleveland Indians and New York Yankees on Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Leah Klafczynski/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Baseball fans wait in line outside the left field gate before Game 1 of the ALDS between the Cleveland Indians and New York Yankees on Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Leah Klafczynski/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Cleveland police atop the parking garage before the Cleveland Indians take on the New York Yankees in Game 1 of an American League Division Series on Wednesday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Phil Masturzo/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Cleveland Indians fans wait for the gates to open in left field before the team's game against the New York Yankees, Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Leah Klafczynski/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Cleveland Indians fan Krista Ebberson of Perry appears as the main gaits open before Game 1 of the American League Division Series between the New York Yankees and Cleveland Indians Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Phil Masturzo/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Cleveland Indians fan Griffin Starr, 11, of Lakewood waits outside for the gates before Game 1 of the ALDS between the Cleveland Indians and New York Yankees on Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Phil Masturzo/Akron Beacon Journal)
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  Edwin Encarnación fans (from left) Kate Began, Adam Saintz, Evan Merten, Coley O'Brien and Tyler Abels pose in their parrot costumes before Game 1 of the ALDS between the Cleveland Indians and New York Yankees on Thursday at Progressive Field in Cleveland. (Leah Klafczynski/Akron Beacon Journal)

By Craig Webb

Beacon Journal staff writer

Cleveland: They waited 162 games for just this moment.

The postseason.

The memories of the extra-inning loss in Game 7 of the World Series to the Chicago Cubs left a feeling of unfinished business among Indians fans.

So they gathered by the thousands well ahead of the start of Thursday’s night game against the New York Yankees to be among the first inside Progressive Field.

Buoyed by a 102-win season — second most in team history — hope and optimism were flying higher than a Francisco Lindor home run as fans waited patiently for the gates to swing open.

Clevelander Kate Began stood in line in a full parrot costume.

Began’s costume and that of four of her feathered friends honors Indians slugger Edwin Encarnacion’s trademark home run strut with his right arm hoisted in the air.

The flock of feathered fans has been wearing the parrot costumes to Friday regular-season games for a month or so.

They had only witnessed one loss so far from their perch in the ballpark’s Corner Bar.

Began proudly points out she is the only female in the nest.

“I’m the momma parrot,” she said.

During one game, Encarnacion waved his arms like a bird and pointed at them, which was “pretty cool.”

What’s not cool, Began said, is the costume, so they’ve been thankful for night games.

And being the superstitious parrots they are — there will be no trips to the bird bath until the Indians win the World Series.

“We’re full-blown parrots,” she said. “I do Fabreze mine.”

One of the earliest arrivals at the ballpark was Erin Baker who showed up around 1 p.m. for a 7:38 p.m. game start.

She sat, leaning against the gate and crocheting mittens for life after baseball.

But the Clevelander is confident there’s still plenty of baseball ahead for her team well into the World Series, and possibly into November.

“I am very optimistic, but I am generally a very optimistic person,” she said. “I hate to think of the alternative.”

There were signs of optimism all over the ballpark. And most of them were tucked under the arm of ultimate Indians fan Jim Stamper.

He’s the guy who dresses in a white tuxedo jacket and holds up giant Chief Wahoo signs at games.

His postseason slogans this round range from “The Will to Win” to his perennial favorite “Not in My Teepee.”

The Cleveland resident has cheered a lot of teams since his first game in 1959.

He likes this year’s team because it feels different than the storied squads of the past that had a lot of individual athletes.

“I think they are more a team this year than we have ever had,” he said.

Tribe fan Steve Stempkowski drove from Yankees territory in Dunkirk, N.Y., to root for his favorite team.

Living in that state to the east, Stempkowski said, he’s been forced to watch a lot of Yankees games on local TV.

“I root against them,” he said.

The long-distance Indians fan says he has a good feeling about this postseason.

“Last year was a disappointment,” he said. “I think they will bounce back.”

Craig Webb, who is trying really, really hard to not cheer from the press box, can be reached at cwebb@thebeaconjournal.com or 330-996-3547.